Saturday, May 7, 2011

My Mom

I can't believe that I am about write this but, On April 27th, 2011 my Mom passed away. She died the day before what would have been my Dad's 70th birthday had he not died very suddenly on November 14th, 2010. I can't quite comprehend that both of my parents are gone and in such a short time. My Mom had been suffering from depression over the loss of my dad. In March it got bad enough that she really wasn't eating and had lost some weight. She went on some medication and she started to get better mentally, but still wasn't interested in food and had troubles finishing even the smallest meal. We took her for another visit to the doctor and when he saw how much weight she had lost and how low her blood pressure was he had her admitted to the hospital that same afternoon. She had a blood transfusion and some fluids and seemed to perk up. She started eating and I thought things were on the mend. The next day we got some results back from tests and the news wasn't good. It seemed that Mom had a mass in her colon and another on her liver. We were shocked to hear over the course of the day conversations with doctors that went from treatment options, to palliative care and within hours being told that she didn't have long to live and we should get our family and friends together. The word "Stunned" doesn't cover how we felt. That was Tuesday and Mom passed the following day at 5pm. We have had her service, but I still don't think it has all sunk in. Support for my family has been pouring in daily and it makes us realize how lucky we are to have each other and the people that make us smile every day. So yet again I have been absent from this blog because of a family loss.

Last night I had a dream that I was competing with Gali, but at the same time I was also sitting on the side lines watching. When I woke up I realized that the dream was trying to tell me to get back to doing what I love but at the same time take the time to do things I need to take of myself, so that when I get back in the ring I can wholly be there to do my best. My "TO DO" list for this weekend included the words "Train Gali, Train Ribbon" and I intend to do just that.